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  1. fairytaleglamour:

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    catchmewhileimsleeping-:

    I think this boy is amazing and it was very thoughtful of him to post this and hopefully help girls out there.  I’ve been through Bulimia hell and back.  And I can definitely tell women everywhere, IT IS NOT WORTH IT!!!  I was hospitalized for causing bleeding when I threw up, and when I went to the bathroom.  I ended up in treatment for 3 months.   I lost jobs and friends over it.  I’ve got cracked/sensitive teeth and premature wrinkles from bursting the blood vessels under my eyes so many times.  I’m only 24 years old and I already have been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Arthritis.  I live with pain and discomfort every day, all because of making myself puke up everything I ate for a stinking year and a half.  That’s all it took.  Not to mention, I lost like 2400 dollars on wasting my time having chemicals injected into my stomach that would supposedly make my fat dissolve….the treatments were called Lipo Dissolve, and you went in a couple times a month to have 20 shots in your stomach….my stomach would turn black and blue and swell up to about the 6-month pregnant mark after every treatment.  I was in so much pain I couldn’t walk for days at a time.  Then, after wasting my hard earned money, and getting no results, the company went bankrupt and was sued multiple times for not working….so I never got any of the guaranteed money back they promised.  Not to mention all the money my parents had to shell out to have me sent to hospitalized and put in treatment, all the procedures I had to endure (colonoscopies, upper endocopies, barium enemas, basically all the most embarassing/painful things you can think of).  I sit here today…mostly cured of my eating disorder tendencies.  And, sure, I don’t always love the fact that I shot up from 100 lbs (at my lowest during the bulimia) to 130.  But I’m soooooooo much happier now.  I’m so much more positive now.  I actually want to live and I actually accept my body overall.  Sure, I’m currently trying to drop a few pounds….but there is a difference between a few and over 20.  There is also a difference in eating healthier, as opposed to binging until I couldn’t breathe and then puking it all up again.  I have a very healthy and loving relationship with a wonderful boy.  I have good friends.  And for the first time in my life I can actually say I WANT TO LIVE!  I may be a little pudgy….but hell….I’m just happy to be alive.  I never EVER want to go back to where I was.  I never want to be that unhappy with myself and life again.  I never want to be that pessimistic and down troden.  I never want to hate myself with all my heart again.  I never want to be so lonely…or allow myself to be emotionally abused by other people.  I never wanna deal with all the health problems again.  None of it.  I’m so much happier being a little pudgy.  You may think it’s worth it to end up with a few health problems from your sickness…back in the day, I didn’t care what happened to me down the line because I was too obsessed with getting thin.  But let me tell you….when you recover….you’re going to regret it.  I fucking hate that I have these wrinkles and that I suffer in pain from arthritis at my age.  I hate that everything I eat or drink makes my teeth hurt.  I hate that I have constant acid reflux that burns my throat from the damage I did.  I hate it all and I don’t want any of it.  But…the damage is done….and I can’t take any of it back.  I can’t get back any of that time or money.  Let me tell you girls….I’ve been hit on more in my life since I’ve been happy, healthy, and had a fuller figure, than I ever was at my smallest.  People actually like being around me now because I’m not such a downer.  I’m not constantly talking about how fat I look.  Sure, I’m not gonna lie..I have my days.  But I will never talk down on myself like I did back then.  And I will NEVER  EVER promote an unhealthy attitude.  I will never post photos of women with anorexia or self harm, because it’s just not something anyone should be looking at.  It’s not healthy and it’s not right.  I’ve unfollowed several of my once-favorite tumblogs because at some point they started promoting eating disorders or self harm.  I just won’t put up with that kind of behavior because I’ve been through it and I’ve come out of that tunnel.  I never want to see anyone go through what I did.  Thank you for posting this, catchmewhileimsleeping-.  It was truly amazing and inspirational and I really hope it gets girls attention.

    xoxo Laura

    I was beautiful then at 120lbs and I’m beautiful now at 156 ♥ I was horribly allergic to every medicine I took on the market that treated my health condition, which caused me to go from 120 to 236lbs at my heaviest in a matter of months. ♥ I am very happy to say that now I’ve found a new category of medicine I’m not allergic to and I’ve lost tons of weight; I’m at 156lbs today and slowly I’m losing all that weight that piled on me; can’t wait to lose more! ;D Remember to be healthy and always love yourself ^_^ ♥

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