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hi sweetiepie ❤ i hope you are feeling better!!  feeling depressed is the worst thing eve, especially when its out of your control ;P 

im so sorry i havent responded to you until now~i honestly havent felt like doing aaanythinggg for these past few days and i feel truly bad for not getting back to you until now ~forgive me! ❤ 

today is the first day ive been up to saying anything, and i had to get back to you first.  i really hate bringing my problems upon others and complaining about whats going on with me, saying negative things etc because ive always been a really private person my whole life, and i never want to bring others down with my crap haha plus i cant really get into the whole thing rite now ;D

i dont want to bore you with the details ((poor miss Lexi that nite we chatted on facebook heehee! ;D)) but ive been suffering from the dreaded snowball effect of crap just compounding and always getting worse~unfortunately its effecting my work on my shop, which ultimately is what i want to do with my life!!! it took me forever to realize what i wanted to do with myself, and now that i finally know what that is, things get really crappy for me!!  its so hard to keep positive while not getting any sales lately/much store traffic/not always adding new goodies because this is constantly weighing so heavily on my mind and distracting me that i cant even get any work done, etc D: i need to find a way to look past all this and move on, but its so hard sometimes as im sure you know ❤ all i can say is that people get really ugly over certain things after loved ones die and it really takes its mental tole on you over time!!

 o my goodness miss Laura i swear someday you may see this very saga i so vaguely write about rite now on a Lifetime movie!!  this is so hard writing about something while not able to tell you the specifics since this was probably so hard to follow and confusing to boot, but one day in the future ill be able to tell you the whole story if youre ever interested and everything will come together perfectly to make crazy sense!! hahaha >_<  i debated writing this to you since i cant divulge the whole story yet and i didnt want you thinking im mega crazy, but i had to get back to you anyway, sweetie ❤ i already feel way better after writing the above blurb, you have no idea~thank you for being here to read my crazy thoughts darlin~!! wink ;D *huge hUgs* ❤ thank you dearheart for being here for me~if you ever need me, im here for you too~i hope you know that and i can promise i wont be nearly as weird/vague as this was tonite teeheehee ❤love you girlie! ^___^ ❤

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